rayofmemory's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ::Most of the Time:: Most of the time I don't know what I want or who I am. Most of the time I'm lost and coming unglued. For whatever reason, most recently things seem to be changing too much and too fast. I feel like I'm drifting, losing touch. I feel it's most apparent when I'm with friends, or driving to and from work, or thinking about what needs to be done. I've been feeling it the most when I go to make plans or when I realize what day it is and how old I am. I feel like I'm standing still, holding my ground, protecting something and everyone is moving ahead without me. I feel left behind. I'm not to much standing as I feel like I'm drifting in this space. I don't like this, I don't like this one bit, but my fears are coming true and I feel more alone than I ever have before. 3:40 p.m. - 06.06.05 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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